Flyefisher’s story
Hello. I'm new. I discovered my TMS 5 days ago. Maybe that isn't enough time, but I can't remember ever being so certain about anything.
Last year was rough. A lot of good things happened but it was the most stressful in my life. Within a 5 month period:
- Job change
- Home remodel
- Wife had our first child (she's wonderful)
- Mother in law lived with us for 6 weeks (she helped but made my life hell)
Around the time of my MIL's visit back pain set in. I went to chiro. Got better. Then got worse, convinced it was some lifting I did in the basement. Went to orthopedic nov/dec 2005, to physical therapy for "sacroiliac joint dysfunction". Got better. Pushed a boat off a trailer Jan. 1. Convinced I had reinjured, I went into pain. Got a little better, but buttock pain persisted. Trained harder for my bike racing in March, and started getting worse, convinced that my lack of core strengthining was at the root. I went to my Dr. and to a neurosurgeion who diagnosed me with disk degenerative disease. Another chiropractor saw my MRI (which was fine according to the radiologist) and said I had internal disk disruption L4/L5, 18 months of rest recommended!!! Got better. Then got worse. Finally in June I decided to abandon all activity. I had reached the point where I was barely riding my bike, could barely stand my daily commute, had to sleep away from my wife on our futon, dreaded cutting the lawn, replaced my chair at work with a Saddle Seat (these are great by the way), bought a new mattress (coming soon). Convinced myself it was sacroiliac dysfunction, so I went to new chiro.
Then it all came down. Last Saturday I had a nervous breakdown. I decided it was now the chiro and my daily stretching that were preventing my healing. On Monday I saw the chiro, told him that I had to seek psycho help because I was losing my mind. He said something about Sarno's book and wished me best of luck (this is a really good guy, this chiro).
I read the book. After reading gobs of stuff for days on end, weeks on end, I read something that described me to a T.
Suddenly I can sit in my car and go to work. I cut the grass yesterday and had no pain. There is still a small ache but it feels like the muscle waste. I am a bike racer (will be again soon, was not for a while because of these stupid DEMONS) and know the muscle pain Sarno references.
I AM FREE!!! I took a ride in my car last night to relax after baby went to bed. I was riding along and started to think about how I could ride my bike again and be FREE!!! I burst into tears. I can't tell you, it was HELL. Who can live like that? I actually had said to my best friend just two weeks ago, had I not had a child I would have probably jumped off a bridge. Seriously. I was at my wits end. I had a great, healthy life, full of fun and motion. Within one year I went from that to less than elderly.
TMS is a nightmare. But the beauty is you can conquer it without surgery, years of waiting and babying your body.
THANK YOU DR. SARNO!!!!!
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